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To The Moon & Back June 19, 2008

Filed under: Random chunks of thought — vamplita @ 1:30 am
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Howdy y’all,

I just found this fun game on Single Mommy By Choice’s website, and I thought I’d throw this in for shiggles.  Play if ya wanna. 

iPod meme.

The Rules

1. Put Your iTunes/ music player on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down, no matter what!!

The Questions

1. If someone says “Is this OK?”
“The Rest of Mine” – Trace Adkins

2. What would best describe your personality?
“Yearning (Just For You)” – Asleep At The Wheel

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
“Could You Be Loved” – Bob Marley & The Wailers

4. How do you feel today?
“Testify” – Stevie Ray Vaughn

5. What is your life’s purpose?
“Dirty Pool” – Stevie Ray Vaughn (Really??)6. What is your motto?
“Three Little Birds” – Bob Marley & The Wailers  (Seriously??)

7. What do your friends think of you?
“It’s You I Love” – BeauSoleil

8. What do you think of your parents?
“Another Sad Love Song” – Toni Braxton

9. What do you think about very often?
“Leavin’ Comin’ On” – Mark Wills

10. What is 2+2?
“Talking In His Sleep” – Toni Braxton  (Y’all are going to start thinking I only have about 12 CDs recorded onto here…sheesh.)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
“Favourite Shirts (Boy Meets Girl)” – Haircut 100

12. What do you think of the person you like?
“Don’t You Throw That Mojo On Me” – Wynonna featuring Naomi Judd & Kenny Wayne Shepherd

13. What is your life story?
“Forever Night Shade Mary” – Latin Playboys

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
“Heaven Help My Heart” – Wynonna Judd  (I swear, I do have more than 12 CDs on this thing!)

15. What do you think when you see the person you like?
“No Man’s Land” – Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band

16. What do your parents think of you?
“Neon Blue” – The Mavericks

17. What will you dance to at your wedding?
“The Killing of Georgie (Parts 1&2)” – Rod Stewart

18. What will they play at your funeral?
“Moon Over Bourbon Street” – Sting

19. What is your hobby/interest?
“His Name Is Lancelot” – Original Cast Recording of ‘Spamalot’ – LOL

20. What is your biggest secret?
“Heat Wave” – Linda Ronstadt

21. What do you think of your friends?
“Mercy Street” – Peter Gabriel

22. What should you post this as?
“To The Moon & Back” – Savage Garden



That’s right – I’m a slacker

Hey all,

Thanks very much for all of you who have wandered onto this blog courtesy of NCLM.  I honestly had the best of intentions when I signed onto that challenge, and promptly buggered it all to hell and gone.  It’s not like I intended to be a person who purposely broke her pledge to visit lots and lots of sites, and comment on every one of them.  Honest, that wasn’t my intention. 

Like a goober, I foolishly thought that I’d manage to bounce back and be my usual pithy self while NCLM was clicking along.  Somehow, that really didn’t happen.  In a way, I’m kind of glad I didn’t jump right back into doing all of the things I’d normally do, because it shows me that I am human after all.  Who knew?

Physically, I seem to be just as healthy as I was before the miscarriage, albeit heavier, what with massive quantities of comfort food and all.  Mentally, I’m less stressed, now that summer break is here where I teach.  Emotionally…I give myself a B-. 

I do fine, as long as I don’t hear an infant crying…or don’t see an infant crying…or don’t see a little one doing something cute or adorable.  Occasionally, my heart breaks all over again when I see something or hear something, or think of something that reminds me that I ought to be in my second trimester now, with a child due in December.  Once in a while, something will trigger a response in me where I again realize that The Baby That Was will never experience certain things that I so wanted him or her to experience, or, that I will never get to witness him/her experiencing said certain things. 

The fantastic mail I keep getting, with the lovely ads and cutesy baby mags are a not-so-pleasant experience, but I now take it in stride.  I have a cabinet where I keep these things, just in case I ever do have a real, live, take-home baby.  After all, lots of supposed experts about my frickin’ life, ignorant assholes people have told me that it could still happen, especially since I did manage to get pregnant this last time.  I could “just get pregnant again”.  Easy peasy, doncha know. 

Oh yeah.  I’m waiting again.  This time, I’m waiting for my body to figure out that it’s okay to reboot and start my periods over again.  The miscarriage happened the week following Mother’s Day, back in May.  Still no sign of Our Least Favorite Aunt.  Actually though, I wish she’d bloody well (pardon the pun) show, already, so that we can get things back on track. 

F and I do want to try again, and as we all know…this ol’ gal ain’t gettin’ any younger.  So while we’re waiting for my body to catch its snap, I wait.  I plan to call my RE’s office tomorrow, to find out what my beta level was when I had it drawn back on June 9th.  Maybe that will help jog my ute’s memory…

“Oh yeah…vamplita needs me to start bleeding again…perhaps it’s time, before her last eggs wither away to nothing…” 

I hope this post leaves y’all with a sense that I’m on the mend, ’cause I am.  I do feel okay, and I know that it really, honestly could happen again.  I really could get pregnant again.  It doesn’t necessarily have to take another eight years. 



Getting to know me, getting to know all about me… June 18, 2008

Filed under: Random chunks of thought — vamplita @ 10:43 pm
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Since NaComLeavMo began, I’ve been reading some new blogs and getting several hits on mine – thanks! Kimbosue was kind enough to tag me (weeks ago – sorry y’all) and allow me a chance to give my visitors, new and not-so-new, a little insight about me.

A – Attached or Single: Attached
B – Best Friend(s): hubby, Becky, Patti
C – Cake or Pie: Pie – key lime, to be precise
D – Day of Choice: Friday
E- Essential Item: Sweet tea
F – Favorite Color(s): Green
G – Gummy Bears or Worms: Gummy Bears
H – Hometown: Llano, TX
I – Indulgence(s): World of Warcraft, more’s the pity
J – January or July: January
K – Kids: 2 of the furry persuasion – Daisy the beagle, and Comet the St Bernard mix
L – Life is incomplete without: my husband and my family
M – Marriage Date: 7/1/2000
N- Number of Siblings: 1 younger sister named Becky
O – Oranges or Apples: Apples
P- Phobias or Fears: arachnophobia, fear of eight-legged critters – They’re an abomination, I tell ya.
Q- Quote: If you don’t use your head, you gotta use your feet.
R- Ring size: 8
S – Season: Fall
T- Tag 3 Friends: Uhh…whomever wants something to do…
U – Unknown fact about me: Used to play tenor sax in high school
V – Very favorite stores: Bath and Body Works, Lowe’s, Michaels  
W – Worst Habit: terminal laziness  
X-ray or Ultrasound: I prefer u/s, but I’ve had numerous of both
Y – Your Favorite Food(s): Beef Curry or Crawfish Etouffee – “mais yeah, chere!”
Z – Zodiac: Aquarius